Something personal...

Some days are better than others, that's for sure. But for the most part this diabetes gig really gets on my nerves.

I'm fighting the urge to go back to bed this morning because my sugars are always high in the morning. It frustrates me to no end.

I've found a breakfast that seems to make me less tired than others but mornings are just hard. They're sleepy and I feel sorry for myself sometimes. Not always. Just sometimes.

It's my personal and private struggle most of the time. I try to fill friends in on how I might be feeling or why I can't join them in a piece of cake but for the most part I'm pretty private about the things I go through.

It's type 2 and I control it well for the most part. It's not always easy to pass up every sweet and every piece of candy but I do just about 99% of the time.

I was diagnosed about 9 months ago and it's been an eye-opening year. It's  been kind of a bad and good year. Now that I have a name for the exhaustion and  all the  other things that come with it, it makes it easier to deal with. My eating has changed in ways that I never thought would be possible and I ride my bike and do a little bit of something almost every day to keep my cells healthy.

Today is a rough day. It's rainy out so that's not helping me feel energized and yesterday was wet and cold too so that means I didn't get a good bike ride in. My body knows it too. It's tired. My cells are pissy and refusing to metabolize this sugar in my system causing me to feel like a wet noodle.

I refuse to give in to it but sometimes I get lazy about stuff. Sometimes I'm not perfect and even less than that in moments. It's a struggle.

I've lost a good amount of weight and that has helped somewhat but it's not the end of the battle. I could stand to lose about 50 more and again, that would really benefit me but my diabetes will never be cured. Even if it's completely under control with diet and I no longer have to take medicine I still have to maintain everything I did to get it under control.

It's obviously here because I'm not good at consistently staying on a great low carb diet or exercising but does it have to remind me with instant consequences? lol

There really is no point to this. I just felt like talking about it. It makes me feel better to suffer out loud I suppose. lol

My day will continue like it always does and I will fight the urge to take a mid-morning nap like I always do and I will get the most out of my day like I always do. Life will go on. I will eat small low carb snacks every two hours to keep my liver and kidneys from dumping too much glucose into my system. My meals consist of 50 grams of carbs or less and while that seems like more than enough try it sometime- Look at your carb intake for the day and add it up. It might shock your socks off. When I first started doing the 50 grams of carbs per meal I felt like I was absolutely starving. I got used to it eventually but I stay hungry for the most part. I eat a lot of protein and that helps.

I need to get into the doc to see what my A1C is ... this is a history of sugars that your body has stored for the past 3 months or so usually. The last A1C was 7.5. Not great but better than 11. I bet it hasn't come down that much. I havn't been all that great with food here lately. lol

But seriously. Life does go on. Some days are harder than others. If you're like me just keep trying. It does get better and then better and even better. I know this, that's why I keep fighting. I will beat this thing.

Now, I have an entire studio of glass that needs to be melted.

Have a great day.

Payton Jett
Glass Artisan / Silversmith
Payton Jett's Handmade Lampwork Beads, Fine silver and Jewelry